A new start.

I want to start this blog off by being honest. I am not perfect, far from it. I have yo-yo dieted, I lost a lot of weight with Weight Watchers before..and I gained it back. I have eaten tubs of ice-cream, stuffed my face with jellies and then starved myself. I've beaten myself up over my size and wished I could change many things about myself physically. I have abused my health in lots of ways....believe me...I am not perfect. 

I have had, however, an eye opener. In 2011, in my first year of blissful marriage my handsome, healthy, witty, strong husband became very ill. My rock, my love, my best friend. He was diagnosed with a very aggressive form of Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma which was at a borderline stage 4. My world could have crumbled, but together, with the strength given to us by our faithful Lord, we muddled our way through a blur of scans, biopsies, chemotherapy, surgery, drips, morphine and lots of other medical words that still make my skin crawl. I watched my amazing husband make it onto the dreaded critical list in November 2011 and then slowly regain his strength in the months to follow. After a testing, tear filled few months..my warrior reached complete remission and was told he was cancer free. He has, since then gone from strength to strength and is the picture of health. 

Health being the key word. Everything that happened to my beloved made me realise our life really is so precious. We don't know what is right around the corner or what battles we might face. So why waste time with excuses..."I'll join Weight Watchers tomorrow, I don't feel like it today."...."I'll go for that walk tomorrow, I'm too tired today." In the year of caring for my love, I gained a lot of the weight I had originally lost in Weight Watchers. I beat myself up for months, but did nothing about it...other than continue to comfort eat. And then it clicked. Please God, one day we will have a family. I want to be here to watch them grow up. I want to be able to go for walks and not get out of breath. I want to feel like I am living each day with my miracle husband to the fullest and not look back and regret a thing. 

In June 2012 I decided to start trying to be healthier. Little changes here & there. I slowly started to feel I was regaining control of my eating, and as the lbs began to come off, I started to realise I CAN do this. On the 30th of May I rejoined Weight Watchers after loosing 26lbs at home by myself. I realise WW isn't for everyone, but as it had worked for me before..I figured it was a safe bet. Since my rejoin, I have lost a further 20lbs and am still loosing. I am loving experimenting with food and I can feel the benefit of it. I want to use this blog to encourage others, share recipes and tips I pick up along the way.

I am learning and I am growing.
 I feel healthier, I feel happier and I feel more like me...the woman I was created to be. 

This is a new start...I am finally growing in the right direction.